Short entry for this blogging cause i have a bunch of work to do b4 the retreat tommorow w00t w00t! ehehe snow baby! girls baby! JESUS BABY!!!!!!! (ehehe it is a Church Retreat afterall...lolz) but yeah, i spent most of today doing stuff, i dont' really remember what though. It might be with the ROTC forums that i just rejoined after a months Hiatus. Anyways, i finally updated my MuVo songs. And i'll even post the list! So in case you're wondering to what i'm ALWAYS listening to (with my Seaside Seashells of course! lolz...Dawkins...) click here!. If you like any of those songs and you want to here on this site, then just tell me. I'd be glad to change the webpage song to one of those and its pretty easy now considering that i have 500 mb of online storage space and 3 gigabytes of bandwidth a month :-O. So thats it for now as i have tons of work to do! I might have another entry b4 i leave but i might not so in case that i don't...TA TA!!!! SEE y'all in 3 days!

Survey time...

series one - you
-- Name: Richard Lam
-- Birth date: November 24th 1986
-- Birthplace: Saigon
-- Current Location: Fullerton
-- Eye Color: Black? Brown?
-- Hair Color: Black? Brown? (i'm really confused because a lot of peeps say its a dark brown)
-- Righty or Lefty: Right
-- Zodiac Sign: Saigittarius

// series two - describe
-- Your heritage: Chinese (Grandparents or Great Grandparents moved to Vietnam during the Japanese Invasion of Mainland China during WW2)
-- The shoes you wore today: The usual "convience" velcro shoes.
-- Your hair: umm...bangs in front...and normal? i suck at describing my style if i even have such a thing as that
-- Your eyes: Didn't we already do this?
-- Your weakness?: Certain things, as for physical pain...i'd say a charlie house would knock me straight to the floor
-- Your fears: Being alone for the rest of my life.
-- Your perfect pizza: they already made it :-D, Pepperoni Lover's Stuffed Crust!
-- One thing you'd like to achieve: Have a happy and loving family.

// series three - what is
-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: lol
-- Your thoughts first waking up: sighs....
-- The first feature you noticed in the opposite (or same) sex: Face
-- Your best physical feature: Pecks baby! lol jk, i honestly don't know.
-- Your bedtime: 3ish?
-- Your greatest accomplishment: Having everything I ever wanted...even if it only lasted a short month.....
-- Your most missed memory: Too many to list....

// series four - you prefer
-- Pepsi or coke: Coke just cause, i like both.
-- McDonald's or Burger King: It's all good but Mcdonald's cause i haven't had anything from them lately
-- Single or group dates: Groups cause its more fun.
-- Adidas or Nike: I ono, i have cheap $15 shoes.
-- Lipton or Nestea: Nestea
-- Chocolate or vanilla: Strawberry!
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Frappucino :-)
-- Boxers or briefs: Boxers

// series five - do you
-- Smoke: Nope
-- Cuss: Not really, i try not to. I don't like it either.
-- Sing well: Definitely not
-- Take a shower everyday: Try to.
-- Have a crush(es): Not really a crush.
-- who are they: I'm not going to list that in a public blog.
-- Do you think you've been in love: Yes.
-- Want to go to college: Only cause so many people are doing it. And cause my sister would kill me if i don't get my bachelor's.
-- Like school: Schools fun only cause of the people there. I hate homework, but otherwise school would be great.
-- Want to get married: Yes.
-- Type with your fingers keys: Hehe, since 4th grade baby!
-- Believe in yourself: Depends...but i'm not sure, i do sometimes and othertimes i don't....maybe its cause i'm a realist.
-- Get motion sickness: I don't think its motion sickness rather a problem with smells.
-- Think you're attractive: Not really
-- Think you're a health freak: Definitely not...i mean..3-4 hrs of sleep a night isn't healthy is it?
-- Get along with your parents: yep yep... but like most ppl in any relatoinship, we do have our spats occasionally.
-- Like thunderstorms: They're cool but the fear of power surge scare the crap out of me...my computer might be on....
-- Play an instrument: Trumpet, but i haven't played it in years.

// series six - in the past month, did/have you
-- Drank alcohol: Accidentally swallowed scope. But that doesn't really count
-- Smoke(d): Nope
-- Done a drug: Nope
-- Have Sex: Nope
-- Made Out: Nope
-- Go on a date: Not really.
-- Go to the mall?: A couple of times. Its pretty fun to be with a group of buddies and just hang out.
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: I'm not a Oreo Fanatic.
-- Eaten sushi: Yuck, once...nearly threwup.
-- Been on stage: Drama, it was fun.
-- Been dumped: I'd have to be with them first....
-- Gone skating: Heheh, finallY! as Andrew would put it ice skating rox0rz my box0rz (i mean literally...i fell quite a bit..)
-- Made homemade cookies: Yummy! But i don't have a oven only a toaster one. And i don't have all the ingridients. But Those pillsbury packages are great!
-- Been in love: Yes.
-- Gone skinny dipping: No way in heck!
-- Dyed your hair: not yet
-- Stolen anything: I've blocked the RIAA....

// series seven - have you ever
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing?: Well...if you call stripping a game...then..:-D
-- If so, was it mixed company: It was public...;-D
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Nope
-- Been caught "doing something": And what would that be?
-- Been called a tease: Not really
-- Gotten beaten up: Hmm...not really.
-- Shoplifted: NEVER
-- If so, did you get caught: N/A
-- Changed who you were to fit in: I"m always changing, not always to fit in though.

// series eight - the future
-- Age you hope to be married: Mid-twenties, but before 30.
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 2, Boy - Bastion, Girl - Michelle or Galatea
-- Descibe your Dream Wedding: In a Church or outside under the starlight of a star bright nite :-D.
-- How do you want to die: Quick...or something that i wouldn't mind.
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: Network Systems Technician (it should be fairly stress free and make enough cash to support a family well)
-- What country would you most like to visit: Taiwan/Japan

// series nine - opposite/(same) sex
-- Best eye color?: The Same as that of my Love.
-- Best hair color?: Same as above
-- Short or long hair?: Long
-- Best height: Don't Care
-- Best weight: Medium
-- Best articles of clothing: hmm.....
-- Best first date location: Walking somewhere at night and just talking, maybe downtown on a sidewalk or something.
-- Best first kiss location: Somewhere comfortable.

// series ten - number of
-- Number of girls I have kissed in my life: 1 but it was a accident and i was only like...6 or 7 at the time.
-- Number of girls you have made out with: None
-- Number of girlfriends you've had: 0
-- Number of boys I have kissed: Err....i've grown up...(hey, i was 5 at the time)
-- Number of boyfriends you've had: err.....
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: None
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: My friends.
-- Number of CDs that I own: A few, Star Wars: A New Hope Special Edition, Command & Conquer Soundtracks (4 of them), Cruel Intentions Soundtrack(my sis but i listen to it way more than her)
-- Number of piercings: None
-- Number of tattoos: None
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: None to my knowledge, i don't really read those tree killing newspapers.
-- Number of scars on my body: A few, but i don't really want to count them all.
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: A number of things.

done and DONE.

Hmm, i spent all day today with Mike and Nick. Heheh they kidnapped me again. Forced me to do the usual slave labor of fixing comps and building them. But its fun so i don't ask for much by they pay me with food anyways (In N Out, Dinner and Fruit Roll-ups along with a fruit by the foot, ehehehe). But yeah, we made stops by Fry's & Best buy and spent around 500 bucks in computer parts (599 to be exact :-D) and another 80 bucks for Windows XP cuz Nick didn't want a illegal version eheh. hehe the case and stuff looks awesome! Though the could've saved a couple hundred had they bought it online but they didn't want to wait. Oh wellz. Still it was fun and we spent many a hrs working on the system (though me and mike were doing most of it, i did most of the wiring and he did most of the screwing). After we had it all hooked up, we needed to install all the software so while we waited on that, Nick, Mike, Annie, and me all played Mario Kart and Mario Party 5 on the Gamecube and it was soo fun! lol i sucked at Mario kart cuz i haven't played a console game in AGES. Sheehs i use to love mario kart but its still great but i sucked! Though it was fun playing it on the big 52 or bigger inch screen they have ehehhe. Four person split screen doesn't suck so much at that. We also played hockey for Mario party which hehehe, me and nick won the first couple of games but the latter one's we were getten owned by Annie! Sheesh, it was sad...when mike had to go and then the cpu went in, she scored on us 9-0 but we managed to get to points in the end for a final 9-2. It was a sad thing as the CPU player sucks....but while we were still 2 v 2, Nick kept scoring on ourselves dang it! Oh wellz. After we finally got the OS and stuff installed they installed Everquest (AND ALL ITS EXPANSION PACKS!) while i went outside with Nicko's PHAT iPod(eheh its soo small, he has a 3rd gen 15 gb iPod! fricken awesome i say...fricken awesome) and i went outside with his Airsoft Pistol and shot some cans. Fun Fun. Then they took me home :-(. Oh wellz it was fun while it lasted but yeah, nicko now has a Cooler Master TAC-T01 Wave Master!! here's a pic & flash

here's the flash

, a Radeon 9600 XT, 512mb of PC3200 Kingston Value ram (only CL3 dang it and timings of 3-3-3-8!!! horrific but its dual channel so it'll still have more bandwidth than me bleh. but mines costed $167 for single MODULE! but its fricken fast with its 2-2-2-5 timings! w00t!), a Allied 500 watt PSU, and a Vantec CopperX HSF, a Pentium 4 3.0C, ABIT IS7-E i865PE, Creative Audigy 2 ZS, and a Maxtor 80 GB 8mb Cache Hard Drive (among other things he scavenged from his old system). So yeah....dang, i want Hyper Threading...:-(, i'd really like its performance improvments for multi-tasking especially since i have like 4 programs and 5 webpages open at the same time. Oh wellz, i'll get a 3.06B at some point.

Oh and i also finally got Mandy's Melo's webaddress, i've been trying to get that since early november..dang..but she's never online and i keeps forgetting. But yeah, its finally up!

blah, i got home from church, then my sister wouldn't let me on my computer as she was burning cd's for her friend so i went to my other sister's room and into her comfortable bed... and lets just say i woke up 4-5 hrs later. And here i am well i'm trying to get my new site up and running the way I want it, but yeah! It'll be awesome. Here's what i have so far! New Site!

Go go the lyrical....

Dido - White Flag

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
I'll tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Dum de dum dum, i just woke up around 1:40 ish...boy i'm doing this waaaayy tooo often. I need to fix it. But yeah, interesting dreams...lots of interesting dreams. Including one where i was a girl and started beating up some annoying guy from Ladera Vista...and one where i got a medal for a Air Rifle shoot just so that I can take away from joey's glamor..lol (in the three I was laughing so hard that I got a second medal and Joey was going like Nooooo!!!!!!! lol, geez, my dreams are funny and wierd). Among many other interesting things such as being back in physics and having to do all that homework..gnarrrr. There were also a lot of other interesting things that occured but thats reservered for me self (nothing sic u sic little people...jac...joey...juan...) ahah JJJ....if only jesse read this. And oh yes! The whole reason for blogging is cause of this little quizzie!


You are Purple.

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wisdom. In tune with yourself, others and
surroundings makes for a good thinker. Just be
careful not to let it go to your head.


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yay! that lan party was fun! a lot of people had Cyborg Evo's :-D! hehehehe. Yeah i finally got home around 12 and i didn't get my system set back up till like 12:30ish. And right now i'm working on stuff like fixing blogger templates and stuff. But soon i'll be moving my blog updates to a diff site! so when that happens, i'll be changing URL's as well! Be prepared with the new one! Cause i got the new template design from during the Lan party! ehehe.

Oh and jac...in response to that tag board of urs....

and remember...i know where u live and that joey's still my bitch.
(hehehe, i think i'm getting better at my photoshop skillz)

yessum! hmm...what else to update...oh! and anyone who wants to go see ROTK with me tommorow please contact me! I'm thinking evening, i dunno exactly yet, but its possible that it might after 9:30 cause Nick doesn't get off work till then but if enough of you don't want to go so late, then we'll go earlier. So far, I have Mike, probably Juan & Paulina. Joey's a no go cause he apparently doesn't like "Lord of the Rings"....horrible joe..just horrible. Anyways, i'll probably have Anthony as well, and umm i need to call Jon-Eric and Mcgyver. Thats it!

well, yeah, i've basically just played Desert Combat, CS, a little warcraft 3, some Space Empires 4, and i think thats it. they managed to get my mind off stuff. So thats good. So yeah, i'm basically here, chatting on AIM, and watching Full Metal Jacket (i'm nearing the end but its really good so far! for all u ROTC peeps, you should watch how a REAL marine drills ya!). On another note, i didn't get to caroling :-( :-( :-(. *major sadness* it was also the main reason for my depression. Heh, i remember two years ago, I was about to go see Lord of the Rings with Juan, Paulina, Joey, Tracy and Robert, and whoever else was part of the gang, but as i was about to leave my bike broke! However, i thought i could fix it, but it was damaged beyond repair. Unfotunately they had already went beyond yelling distance and running distance (like maybe half a mile away on bike....) by the time i realize it. And I couldn't get a ride from anyone else either. So there i was, in the middle of my old manic depressive days, and bam this thing hit me. And for those of you who understand what not going to the movies with my friends meant...yeah, it was bad. So at that time, i tried my best to get my mind off stuff by playing some Max Payne. Heh...it truly was a dark time for me then. So many bad yet good yet horrible memories. Really fits the Max Payne theme. So yeah, I just palyed that, and as soon as they got back I just went over to juan's house (around 11:30ish pm) and yeah. hehe, i was really wierd always going to their house late at night. But we talked and yeah. Old memories.

This time however, i just played and played...till i stopped a couple of hours back and started chatting. Hmm, i should've went over to joey's, i always said i was gonna break into his house and scare him in the wee hours of the morning. Hehe, i did go to juan's @ 3 am and wake him up with a rake through his window afterall.... good times...hmm its 3:50 right now. But nah, i gotta finish that movie and my bro said i was suppose to stop at 3AM but its such a good movie! So here i am again...talking on AIM and the movie is paused in the background (eheh, 15 minutes left on it, but at the moemnt the marinesare gonna get some PAYBACK). But yup, i wished i went carolingso i could exchange the wahchamacallit secret santa stuff. I got the present too, i wonder who my secret santa is. From what i'm hearing it was pretty funny. Hmm i just had a massive picture transfer between me and jason, lol. But yeah, back to the day. i went to mel's house with Ivan to give her present! that was short. and interesting. Bleh, i still wished i got to go oh wellz. I'll just end the entry here cause i forgot what else i was about to say. Cause its been an hour between what i was gonna type and what what i'm typing now.

For some reason, i feel incredibly depressed right now.....i feel just like 2 years ago...bad things...bad things...

ahahaha, dennis updated his xanga and put part of the GBC christmas video. Too bad he can't put the whole 25 minute video :-(. Oh well at least this is great! i'm gonna ask him if i can get whole 25 minute video on a cd, i gotta show this to all you peeps!

this is just a taste of things to come!

fot those of you with 56k right click on this and save target as to download the video

Ghost Dance

and for those of you who have broadband, just watch...its good :-D

also for those of you who are making ginger bread houses..*cough*joey*cough* eheheh, look at this ONE!

Ginger Bread Village

muahaha! go VIA EPIA!!!!

and this is just plain out awesome robotness!

download this video and then watch the rest! and read about the whole thing on the below link!

QRIO video
(sorry but i'm not gonna emb this one cause its 6.6 meg's or so, it'll totally kill any 56ker's if have two videos :-) .)

the Sony QRIO
QRIO!

dum de dum dum....fun day. First early bird with Church and all. It was hard espeically since i went to sleep at 4 Am...i felt so bad for falling asleep for the intially part of the sermon! But i managed to get msyelf awake later after I remembered what andrew told me about falling asleep. So i took off my jacketa nd cooled my body down enough so that i can stay awake. That plus the Pastor Ewin made a few comments about the sleepers...lol...turns out i wasn't the only one! But yeah, i didn't get home till middle of 2ish. After that, it was winamp tv for a bit, and then straight to Space Empires 4! Jeez, i think i'm addicted now. But around 4-5ish, Mike Kelton decided he needed my help with his home router buisness so i went to his house and yeah. Didn't really spend that much time fixing the problem cuz it was mainly just firmware. Nick didn't join us this time cuz he was at a hockey game. But yeah we had lots of fun with Desert Combat after we finally got it all installed patched and stuff. Hehehe, his cyborg 2000 is teh sux0rz. So screwed up. But it was fun! We both had our fair share of fun. He took me home around 11 and then we had some more desert combat fun! This time flying jets in DC NO Fly Zone. he kept thinking he could fly a A-10 through those bridges! But NO! the wings are too big! I complained mucho about the optimizations in DC .6F but grr so many dropped frames! Caused me to crash a bunch. Oh well. Oh, ima definitely going on the GBC Winter Retreat next week! hehe i also got a full scholarship for the payment as well which is totally awesome since i odn't have to pester my parents about 97 bucks. Hopefully the retreat doesnt' conflict with Ben's LAN party. So he better have it early that week! Hopefully. Andrew's is this friday i think. It'll be funzo's!

Oooo, friday was funzo's! Well at least in the later parts of the day. After school, i had to work on NJUMS...which took a LONG two hours. I didn't get to walk my 20 minute walk home till like 5:40. But hey, they were having a christmas party while i was there! so i got some free pizza at it! But yeah, NJUMS was boring but hey, i have to do something for my rank. But yeah, once i got home, i went on a rush to get ready and then i went to the ice skating thingy! ooo that was fun! First time ice skating too! hehe, i only fell down 3 times! Dang crazy high-speed u turn's :-D. I eventually got the hang of it though. Just had to figure a way to slow down after I reversed my direction! But yeah, it was cold, i threw snowballs at peeps. ehehe, mariah...cheryl...and joe! muahaha! But yeah, it twas fun. After i got home though, which wasn't till twelve cause like i hanged out with the GBC peeps till like a long time. We had a fun chat. I feel like i'm really finally starting to integrate with them. Though not yet to be totally open yet. But then ROTC is the only place where i've been really open...if you know what i mean...;-). I fell asleep soon after i got home. I went online of course but i was sorta tired at the comp. But oy ehehe, i had a buncha bruises.

As for today, I when i woke up, i was alll sore! All that skating was fun. But yeah, i woke up pretty early (at 8 AM), got on the comptuer (as usual) and chatted and did stuff. Ate breakfast and everything at the computer. but woooohoo! Desert Combat .6 is out! But while i waited for my download spot on fileplnaet and while i did that, i started trying out Space Empires IV in the background just like the good days with kazaa/hotline client and space empries III! So fun! I got so into it, that i lost track of time, and soon it was 7 hours later and 4 PM! Crazy. Then after that i installed the new DC .6 patch and w00t! The new choppers and the Nimitz class carrier is TOTALLY AWESOME! But i seem to have some bugs in teh catalyst 3.10 drivers. Bah. But i finally got that working. But around 4, i wanted to go to the church thing but i couldn't cause my siblings didn't want me to go to a church thing. They wouldn't help me do that. But yeah, so after some fixing my computers and stuff, i got call from Pastor Ewin! And yay! he gave me a ride! even though i missed most of it, it was still fun! Ahhahaha, the CRASH video was soooooo hiliarious! i wish you all could've seen it! I was laughing so hard! After that i went home and yeah, i'm here now. Thats what's been going on. Dum de dum dum. Ehehe, i cant' wait till i get the template finished! Its gonna be a lot of work. And i seme to be very busy this christmas break so i hope i'll have it done! Till then toodles!

Was talking to yen, dang crazy gal got 99% on her PSATs...but then she is a Sophmore in caculus B anywayz. Was also reading her blogging's and took the quizzie...and found out that i have PMS...go figure!


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Also went to martino's house to install his brand spanking new Athlon XP2500+ barton! w00t w00t! Unfortuatnely its of the new model where they added another layer to lock out the mutlipier! So no mad overclocking goodness :-(. Sadness. but then he doesn't like overclocking anyways. Still he can't do anything less than 11x multiplier. HAd some fun with condition zero at his house as well. BTW he's also selling a AXP 2000+ Palomino core for 30 bucks if anyone's interested. Unless he's already found a buyer. either way, its cool.

Bleh, i tried lock-on today...SUPER SySTEM INTENSIVE! Dang, this game is sooo frickin intensive! 20 fps at 1280x960 with most details set to high. it drops to 2 when i fly past a chopper! craptacular! this game needs serious patching.

Hmm, i had a all nighter last nite for English Project. hehe...well..i slept for 2 hrs between 1-3 AM well more of went to bed at 12:50, sis woke me up at 1:57, got out of bed, next to my computer, dropped on the floor fell asleep, got back up, on the computer, checked Dirty soap, then went into a state of semi-sleep. So nevermind that. On another note I updated my buddie links for Mariah, and Johnathan chen! Yah, church buds! Hehe, i can't wait till Ice Skating this friday. Sorry to all my ROTC pals, but i won't be attending the Christmas Party this year. Awws well. Ehehe, i also decided i'm going caroling! that'll be fun! Oh, Mel got me a Fooly Cooly Manga for christmas! Fun fun! Ehehe, i'm still waiting for her "present" to get here...wait...checking location..woohoo! its in Anaheim! I might get it tommroow! and still be able to get it to mel by friday! Ehhe. Looks like it made a flight from Maryland to California. Sooo.....I got a haircut! Finally, my last haircut was the thursday before the Beach Trip for CRASH. That was almsot exactly 4 months ago. Wow. ANyways, no more fro hair! On the last note, i'm still waiting for the template. I might get this thing moved sooner than you guys might think sooo yeah. The new template will be only temporary. However it'll allow me to get all the basics down.

For those of you who are gamers that read my blog....you gotta check out these Battlefield Vietnam screenies!

(i'm only including hyper links on those that deserve captions)
http://image.com.com/gamespot/images/2003/reviews/915255_20031209_screen008.jpg
http://www.gamespot.com/pc/action/battlefieldvietnam/screens.html?page=39

Nice Fishbed
FLYING TANK!
Lmao....the Rats are coming out their holes...
The RATS ARE BEHIND YOU!
Nice Fog
Decapitated RAT
Rats on bridge

oh, and Fallout 3!!! got canceled :-(...but here are the uncompleted screenies.

Sadness....:-(

on another note...i'm certain for thsoe of you who read this, have also playe Desert Combat (or at least seen me play it). Ahhh the Sukhoi 25 Frogfoot....powerful it is, but its HUD-less in life! Very crude to fly even though in the game it performs much better than the similiar A-10.
here's a pic of the Su-25 cockpit. Just like the ruskies to build a great flying machine only to make it extremely difficult on the pilot to actually fly the thing.
Su-25 cockpit
and here's a pic of what Su-25 Frogfoot looks like in case you have no idea what i'm talking about..:-D
Frogfoot
and here's a A-10 Cockpit in comparison, with Huds and cockpit panels (which is especially necessary due to the advanced AGM missles that it sues such as the AGM-65 Maverick and AGM-62 Walleye)
A-10 Cockpit
and just for kicks, i found the F-15 cockpit to just plain out look awesome.
F-15 w00t w00t!
and just for joey...DIE YOU FACIST PIG!
JOEY!
and here's the nicest render i've evers een of the Kiev-Class Russion carrier RSS Kuznetsov (I did a probreif on it okay?) i've ever seen...
Kuznetsov
more kuznetsov goodness along with a Su-33k Naval Flanker
Flanker landing
i just find this hilarious
parachute bomb, lolz...
whoa...DX9 graphic effects...awesome blur!

nice DX9 water....

another nice blur effect
blur 2
ahh modern day graphics...so beautiful!
Formation
gosh..i remember reading about this game right after school ended on the last day of sophmore year. Right before i went to the graudation ceremony for my sister. So many old memories an feelings. Sighs.....

I was gonna type a buncha of stuff this morning cause I felt really angry at the world but i dont' feel that anymore. Soooo.....on to more about what happened. For one thing...i had ELEVEN HOURS OF SLEEP...count it all, cause thats right...A WHOLE GOSH DANG 11 HOURS OF SLEEP! Wait..lemme count that....alrite..on to more conservative figures...nine hrs....maybe 10. So I suck at counting...so sue me! I was just woke and stuff when i counted that gosh dang it. Anyways even after all that sleep, i still fell asleep in both English, Math, and nearly physics as well! It sux. I don't get enough even when TRY! Grr. Anyways i tons of homework today and blah! I suck at concentrating at physics. hmm dang it, i forgot what i was gonna say. Lemme ponder...dum de dum dum...oh! Hmm...well for one thing...i realize that my stomach is really big cuz i just ate like 9 tacos, hash browns, and a buncha candy and I'm STILL hungry. I can probably chow down another 3 tacos if wanted to. Sheesh! On another note, i realize that none of the girls i've ever liked had Broadband. Every single one of them had 56k dang it! I now know the reason for my bad luck with girls. Their pipes are too small to download all my affection! Thats it! NEXT TIME that gal BETTER have BROADBAND or they ARE out of the question! Yeah....i hope the next one has broadband...

Hmm....watching TV makes me think of strange stuff. heh...for some reason, i really want a family christmas. Well, i think i've always wanted to do something special for Christmas. I'm one of those traditionalist in that sense. I dunno if this has always been me or just recently, but i really want to do something special with the family. Its just, i'm not one to do it or suggest it. Especially since my family is was never really close or did anything together. We always just tended to our own things. For example parents always working, but even if they didn't, my mom would be tired or would rather do something else. My dad...well he doesn't come home anyways. And my siblings, my oldest sis might do something but would probably bitch but she might just consider it. My brother....hmm...i ono, i think he's willing maybe. And my youngest sis would probably willing as well. But eh, i guess its the parents and my oldest sis that would have trouble. But i dont think i'll ever do anything wtih them anyways. I guess that might be why i can't wait till i have a family of my own. hehe...i bet you guys never thought i even thought about this..being a computer geek and all. But aye, i've been thinking of my future ever since gradeschool. But yeah, I think that might be why i'm also thinking of a partner. Someone to have a family with. I can't imagine myself being alone in the future. Its just a unbearable thought. Bleh, i want to say some stuff but i dont' completely open my mind to everyone. Maybe i might blog in #2 later.

Heh, when I think of what I have, i think i have basically everything material thing I really want. A good computer, and basically, i think thats all i really want in material form (unless you also say decent clothing, and MP3 player and blah blah). Well I'd also LIKE a car but i don't really WANT one. I would like a car so i wouldn't be such a burden to people who does give me a ride. But yeah, i don't expect taht for years. I have some money, but i realize the only reason i have it is because i haven't been going out much lately. I want to do something this break, like the movies or something. Soo, those of you who live by me, lets go out to the movies! Dunno what to watch tho. Also, another thing, for those of you who I do hang out with regularly, WE NEED TO FIGURE OUT SOMETHING TO DO OTHER THAN JUST HANG OUT AT SOMEONE'S HOUSE OR AT SOME FOOD PLACE! Bleh. Maybe one more time at starbucks, i haven't had a frappucino for a while. That reminds me, watching TV commercials, I ono, i seem to be analyzing them a lot lately. Well, more of like today. Okay, maybe one or 2. Alrite FINE, that new Sony PS2 commercial. hehe i ono i just thought it was a really good commercial. Still wont' make me buy a console again but still a good one. I just looked at a few other commercials and was thinking of their marketing tactics and how its tricking us. Anyone else do that? Strange stuff nowadays.

Blah, i want to say more but wasting valuable homework slacking time! As well as other things. ANYWAyS. BLAH.

Well, I think i'm finally starting to really do what Robert said i should do. Concentrate on loving God. hehe. Hmm, i still need to get working on that template. I also need to do my homework, but then when is that ever done? Hmm....well, I read the bible for like 20-30 minutes today. There's something. I think. I'm gonna try to do that everyday.

Well jessie asked me to take this...even though i've already taken it like THREE TIMES. Hmm a little different this time.

Dante's Inferno

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Very Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test





bleh....i ono, i need to work on a few things on my personality i still find very wrong. I also need to figure out some other things but yeah. Played a lot of CS and DC yesterday and Friday. Grrr, i missed CRASH. Didn't have a ride, oh well. I think i know what i'm gonna get my secret santa, hehee. I need to do some christmas shopping over this week. I also still need to get that dang haircut. Soooo long. OH well. I'll get it b4 Uniform Day. Thats all i guess. Nothing of interesting note really happening.

though, i recall writing this poem last year for Advanced Composition & Novel. I seem to like it a lot right now cause it seems to feel like my current feelings. Anyways, here it is.

Dark Void

dark is always lurking
around corners
in closets
creeping slowly behind ears

like a single group of players
football players in the field
practicing everyday
all of them happily
or so many of them had thought they were happy
few are weak
few are in the void
dark void they are in

dark voids are everywhere and they are square and sharp
hiding
watching
then leaping to action
with your heart in shock
a needle in the veins
a thought

the dark void covertly creeping
through the minds along shattered dreams
as you did to I
how the void consumes and a hungry appetite it has
another victim it has taken
how many more is required
the greens of night, the blacks of day

the green eyed monster always stares while watching and waiting
- until the victim screams why oh why must the world be mean being invisible while being so dreadful makes it unfair
it uses its power to:
either consume ones heart
void like
or fills ones mind with bad ideas
bring death to heart
mind to tormented living
evisage ones friend

in the end
all normal friends are haloed green
green for envious wonder and wanting
a better life
but no real person is normal at eyes of themselves
remembering once long ago
no wanting
it is better to be myself than to be tormented in the living hell

the dark void makes one work
it fuels our work
it drives our mind
it mkaes us wonder
it forces our loyalty
it makes people and breaks them
it is people
worked long and worked hard to live the otmrent of many years only to find its better to be oneself

yearning for everything
love/want/need/life

the void is life
learn it and live it

I just updated a few things (hyperlinks, buddies and stuff). I still need to get to to work on that new template. Ben's really anxious to help. hehe, i think my new theme will etiher be geeky or sixpence. Hehe.

I am no longer sick. I feel that some...if only a little..of my motivation is coming back. Heh. I dunno...i wonder how long it'll take. I wonder what will happen once it does. Either way, i still feel like crap right now. Games would help take my mind away, however i do not have time for games...grr i hate makeup work. I have tons of that for Physics and Math. Especially physics...since i have to make up like....weeks worth. I dont' necessary have to do it but i just need to know how its done. I have a test tomorrow. I already bombed my math test so that doesn't matter. I hope i past Math Analysis this semester so that i can get those 4 credits toward Calculus. Bleh. Battlestar galatica was good tho short. Only two episodes, darn.

bleh....i ono. If you want to know whats going on then ask me. Otherwise i'm gonna stop mentioning it. But yeah on to more happy matters! I had a fever and i didn't even know it! 102.3! well..i retested and i got only 102 :-D (but theni also cheated by drinking lots of cold water but that isn't the point). But yeah, that and battlestar galactica is good. What else...oh yeah...i suck at school. I stopped caring about school. But then i stopped caring about most things in life years ago anyways. Just do what i have to. But now i feel like i care about almost nothing at all! Nothing. Maybe someoen should just cut out o my heart. But then, i don't have it anymore anyways. Goodbye heart...i'll miss ya! Wait.can't miss something thats required to feel missed...stupid me. Stupid world. Stupid Life. Oh well, i just know it'll get better. Lemme see...today...i was sick...tired..depressed...then later i flunked my math test. But the only thing keeping me together is faith. My siblings are all freaked out by how much i actually believe. Wierd.

Was reading a livejournal from some random person. I found this on the journal "they say you have to know pain to appreciate happiness. sometimes I wish I could be completely numb and not feel anything" so true....

this was also a very intersting blab from the person as well Here

also check out sixpence's newest album "Divine Discontent" at their website Here

Aye...Sixpence None the Richer is once again my Favorite band! Such good music! hehe, i didn't even realize they were a Christian band till a few months back. I want to get their new album...or...Kazaa...but...Christian and piracy...not a good mix...but i'll see.

lmao....i found this ad at newegg.com for a Athlon 64......

*updated*
bah they changed the icon...the one i posted was better....

More quizzies i guess



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interesting....


Athena


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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hmm occult and romantic...


As if you were born into a world of tears, you
always tend to look at the darker things in
life. Inside you crave attention yet push away
society, and you're a hopeless romantic. Drawn
to things like the occult and mysteries, you
spend your time daydreaming of "What
If's".


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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yay i'm good

You're mostly a good person. You're good
most of the time, but you know how to be bad.
;)

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for a fun, yet addicting vampire game.


*How evil are you?*
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I'm a individual...

You are an individual,go you! You think for
yourself and don't need to wear tight shirts
and short skirts to get the attention you
want.You are somewhat depressed but try not to
let people know.That where the cutting comes
in.You're not one of thoes people who need to
be labeled and you dont have a group.You're
just you.By the way,please vote for my quiz!


What clique do you belong in?
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i got these two things...bleh....


Your soul is bound to the Solitary Rose: The
Alone.

"When I wake up alone, the shades are still
drawn on the cold window pane so they cast
their lines on my bed and lines on my
face."

The Solitary Rose is associated with loneliness,
melancholy, and patience. It is governed by
the goddess Merope and its sign is The Sword,
or Unrequited Love.

As a Solitary Rose, you may be summed up as a
hopeless romantic. You desire love and have so
much love to give, but thing just never seem to
work out the way you want them to. In life,
you can be very optomistic, even when things
are gray and nothing works out to your
expectations.


What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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Your soul is bound to the White Rose: The
Pure.

"I've been waiting in the dark for a long
time, shining my beacon of hope through the
shadow. If you see me, don't you hide your
eyes from me."

The White Rose is associated with purity, honor,
and chastity. It is governed by the goddess
Artemis and its sign is The Cross, or Agape.

As a White Rose, you are a person of your word.
You may have a strong moral code, but
regardless of your virtue, you always stay true
to yourself. To you, love is the most pure of
emotional forms and it's just a matter of
waiting for it to bless you. Some people may
say you are too idealistic, but it's only
because you don't want to mess things up.


What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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more good stuff....


You represent... kindness.
You're a very gentle, kind, and caring individual.
You truely care about people and are generally
well-liked. Though sometimes you may be
perceived as weak, you truely have a strong
heart and a good desire to help others.


What feeling do you represent?
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enough of this..